So today was a rough day, I went to dialysis and ended up exploding when a fellow patient said something rude to me. This was not the 1st time and every other time I stayed quiet which was very wrong of me. I should have spoken up when he said something offensive the 1st time. Instead I pushed it down and kept pushing it down which is wrong. If anyone ever hurts you speak up the 1st time , or go to an authority because no one has the right to disrespect you. That is the lesson I learned today and will carry with me forever.

Finding My True Self

Have you ever felt so complete that you finally were able to see yourself for who you truly are? Neither have I, until this past weekend.... when I went and competed in the Ms. Wheelchair Florida Pageant. I know whoever is reading this may be thinking that is just silly, there is no way you can find who you are in one weekend, depending on your point of view you either think it is a life long journey or something you are instinctively born with. In response to say I will have to agree with both. The reason I say that is because even though I felt more at home, and surrounded by more love and care then I have ever felt in 30 years being around my peers of smart, creative, passionate, strong  women in wheelchairs, now that I am home I see myself as more self assure and confident but I also see old behaviors creeping in of trying to impress people who I know in my heart and soul are bad for me to be around. I spoke my concerns to  my therapist and he said something that I will take  with me forever "We all have different sides, and that's okay." In other words whatever you portray is a portion of your true self if you are being real while doing it. Okay well this is my blog for the day...hope it helps people  who may be struggling with a similar situation.